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Thursday, March 5, 2009

Rumor Control

Since the rumors are flying... I thought I'd let everyone know what's been going on with us the last 24 hours.


Yesterday, I went to Madigan for a routine monthly baby exam. Dave had tried to get off at work, but the powers at be didn't let him come to the appointment (although I was told bye the CO that he could be there). So I had my Mom and Dad there with me. After answering all the standard questions, the doctor rolled in the ultrasound machine to look for sack the baby is in and to hear the heartbeat. The doctor squeezes the gell on my belly and proceeds to look for the baby. 5 minutes pass by, 10 minutes... the doctor tells us this is a new machine and it's his first time using it. So, he calls another doctor in for a second opinion. The second doctor comes in, now it's been 20 minutes, and he looks. They tried both the belly and vaginal ultrasound. Neither doctor could find a baby.


This meant 1 of 3 things. 1)It was too early to see the baby (which I knew wasn't the case, I was at least 13 weeks) 2)It was a miscarriage or 3)It was an ectopic or tubal pregnancy. The doctors said they were going to send me to the lab to get more blood drawn to see what the horomone levels in my body were to determine pregnancy. At this point, I thought it was pretty important that Dave come to Madigan and go through all of this with me. So, I call the CO and he gets Dave to me with in the hour. I get my blood drawn and head home to wait for the phone call from the doctor to tell me what the outcome is.


A couple hours later, the doctor calls me back and informs us that it was a miscarriage and that the cramping I experienced several weeks back was probably when it happened. So tomorrow I go in to OB at Madigan to have one final ultrasound to 100% confirm and figure out if a D&C needs to happen. The docs don't think so... but want to be sure.


So, we're okay. This sucks... but in the light of the upcoming deployment, we feel a bit relieved. I still want to have a baby and will try again. Just now wasn't the right time.


I think for at least the time being, we just need our space and time to grieve. Thank you to everyone who called, emailed, texted your condolances. Your support is really appreciated.

21 comments. Add yours here!:

Alexis AKA MOM said...

Much love to you and your family! In my thoughts and prayers. Take it easy and I'll be waiting to see the next amazing creation you do.

XOXO Lex

Sassypants Wifey said...

Aw Hun, my heart goes out to you. We had a miscarriage 2 days after Hubs first deployment to Iraq. I didn't realize what was going on, thought it was the stress. I was a little relieved also, we werent ready really. We were sad, but years later when we found out again, we were much more prepared. I wish you comfort. I am always here. I know that deployment feeling. Much Love.
Sassypants Wifey

Young Momma said...

Oh hun....(((hugs))) I'm here to listen if you need it!

Freelancebyu.com said...

I had the same thing happen 2 years ago, it is hard ..... but it will get better, I promise! when you get back ......... I hope you have 2 or 3 times the amount of twitter followers than you expected, going to talk up your site NOW!

Jodi said...

I am praying for you *hug* Im so sorry..

*hug*

Patty said...

This is my first time reading your blog. I actually clicked on it because I LOVE cupcakes and coffee.

I'm sorry you are going through what you are going through. I think it takes great strength to handle it as you two are. Just like you, I also believe everything happens for a reason, even when it's something painful or hard.

Hang in there.

blueviolet said...

I was behind you in line at SITS this morning and so I came over. I'm so terribly sorry. I can't pretend to know what the right words are so all I can say is that I'm sorry and that I care.

Small Slice said...

So sorry to hear you had a miscarriage.

Kristen said...

I came over from SITS and I read your post. I am sorry for your loss...you are in my thoughts.

Alexis AKA MOM said...

Hey Girlie, just stopping by to say hi hun! The offer for Coffee is good anytime, I'm only a crazy blog stalker not a real one in real life :). Anytime ;) you shoot me an email.

Midwest Mommy said...

I am so sorry and you are in my thoughts this week.

Rachel said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Miscarriages are a painful thing to go through. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Ryan Ashley Scott said...

I am so sorry. There are just no words. Prayers going out to you.

beclever said...

Big hug from someone you don't know but who has been there...

I read this a few years after the fact and it helped me find peace... It starts on page 125...

Hope it helps when you need it...
More hugs...Take care of you...
B

http://books.google.com/books?id=LHlQxW68nfYC&pg=PA126&lpg=PA126&dq=miscarriage+baby+catcher&source=bl&ots=lRO3I5_pRI&sig=iwENKgEGicPdYifWSU9A6c0HPgM&hl=en&ei=toi0SbfCMcyQmQeU0oDxBQ&sa=X&oi=book_result&resnum=2&ct=result#PPA125,M1

one6ylady said...

My adopted-by-love daughter went through this painful process just 3 weeks ago, so my heart truly goes out to you. She and her fiancee were so very excited about this baby that they were crushed about the loss, which was very unexpected. They like you, live with the knowledge and hope that this won't be the last baby they conceive, and this pregnancy simply wasn't meant to be. Sending you TONS of hugs!

Megan said...

I'm sorry to hear about your m/c. =( Thoughts and prayers for you and your fam.

AndreaLeigh said...

i've very sorry to hear about your miscarriage. you and your husband are in my thoughts.

Kathleen W. said...

My heart goes out to you and your family. I can only imagine what you must be going through.

vamomma said...

I too had a miss at a military hospital. I'm assuming Madigan is military?

We lost our son at 4 months gestation. The date of that visit was March 13, 2006. I'll never forget it.

They simply couldn't find the heartbeat...I was scheduled for a D and C a few days later. The Navy told us our son was too old and we had to bury him--2 weeks after they told us there were no remains. Imagine--hubs is away and I get a call from "decedent affairs" I went ballistic. Until I realized that they were talking about my son, and not my husband.

We buried our son in a local veteran's cemetary after the Army and Navy de-conflicted all the stuff that they needed to de-conflict--which took a month. They then promptly lost the death certificate. Amazing.

I saw your tweet about the follow up phone call. OMG... I'm GLAD you handled that like you did. Good for you girl.

Please let us know how you are doing. My heart breaks for you...Hugs and more hugs to you....

Tammigirl said...

I am so sorry this happened. I wish you peace and comfort.

Kelli in real life said...

Just found your blog today. I too miscarried last March, and I truly feel for you and your family today. I wrote about what I went through on my blog recently and if you're up to it, take a read and I pray it gives you a boost of strength.
Peace to you and your family!